Before i started tonights post i just wanted to say happy new years to everyone..

So my best friend tells me like 2 weeks ago that she started talking to some guy on the internet.  Jen was with a guy for a few years and well lets just say things did not work out. Anyway.. she told me he was comming down to meet her.. and that she was moving up with him. We made a deal that i had  to meet him first. So the day came he was suppose to come over and well it was a no show. So that should have showed her right there. So she came over christmas eve and she told me she didnt think she wanted to go ... well she said she was not sure because of what he did. And then she wanted me to get her ex my other best friend to talk to her and he could make her stay.. not her best friend of 15 years but this guy could.. so i ask him to talk to her and she tells him that nothing is making her stay and she makes me look like the lier.. but i showed chad the proof she did say that.. and then she tells me the only way she will stay is if chad dumps april and takes her back.. jen i know u love him but u really need to move on. She told me she is leaving and i dont agree with it.. she dont know this guy. And to make things worse he looks like my ex but dont even get me started on that story.. anyway so i told her not to go i was worried about her... scared she was going to get hurt.. or even killed moving to digby with a guy she dont know.. well she met on the net. So anyway to make a long story short she picked him over her best friend.. I cant watch her do that to herself... jen i love u i really do.. but u are making a mistake... u think u can. and yes some ppl do meet and it all works out.. but it should be him comming to see u first ... I wish you would change your mind

    On to some better news.. me and liam were dating 3 weeks now.. and he is awesome. He is the nicest person i have ever went out with. There are no worried about him leaving me or even cheating.. he is the best thing that has happened to me. He is always thinking of me.. and he makes me feel so smart and so good about myself... i love him so much.. i really think he is the one...

Today 4 years ago was the hardest thing i ever had to face, I lost someone very special to me. Someone I loved with all my heart. Next to my father, He was the greatest man alive.  He would do anything for anyone. You could count on him for everything. I was going to become a nurse just because he wanted me to do it, I gave up on that dream for a little while becasue he was gone and no one else had ever beleived in me as much as he did.. He thought i could do anything.. I remember a few months before he died, he had a really good talk with me, he told me he never had kids but to him i was the closet thing he had to a daughter, he thought the world of me and my sisters and our brother.. We were his clildren. He told me he wanted me to become a nurse so I could make something of my life. He told me to forget about boys that if i stopped trying so hard the right guy would find me, he was always right and always gave the best advice. He told me that when he was gone he would always be looking down on us.. and no matter what he would always be proud of us.. I remember that night he was talking to me for like a hour and i was in tears, because I knew then he was really dieing.. He had kidney failure and he was on dialysis and at then end of it he got tired of fighting... I will never forget the second last time i saw him.... it broke my heart, I dont know why someone so great had to go through so much pain. There is one thing i really really miss about him... and thats his hugs when he gave u a hug you could tell he meant it. He hugged you with all he had, actually i just miss him.  I have so many memories of him, he was a great person.. he worked for loaves and fishes, he always helped the poor.. he worked in the mans shelter in sydney... He cared about everyone. He was involved with baseball, and like i said he would give you the shirt of his back if he knew it could help. I'm so glad that man was my godfather... he was my hero on earth and now he is my gardian angel. I actually got a tattoo on my back with his name inside a heart that has wings. Thats the way i see him... he is a angel and i know he is watching down on us. The year he died, my mom would swear that he was here with her... we go to my grandfathers every year on christmas day and my mom stays home and ray knew that,. so that year there was cds fallin off the entertainment center and my mom knew it was him trying to tell her he was there. When i have a son, he is going to be named after this great man,. Ray I wrote this tonight to let you know we all miss you and we love you. We will never forget you.

We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name, In life we loved you dearly in death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you. You did not go alone, for part of us went with you, the day god called you home. You left us peaceful memories; your love is still our guide, and though we can not see you, you are always at our side. Our family chain is broken and nothing seems the same! But as god calls us home one by one, the chain will link again!!!!

we love you

Hey, i know its been awhile since my last update. But i have been very busy! getting ready
for christmas and hanging out with friends and talking to my someone special. I got some
awesome news, I finally gave up on roger. :) but my family was getting mad at me and i
did not want to lose my friends. and i saw what he was doing to me.. and i hate that i have
to share.. and i know this is mean but he was like a dirty person. he Never changed his
clothes, but i thought well that cant be that hard to fix.. it was. But im glad he is gone.
I finally figured out i am a strong person and i dont need that kind of crap in my life.
i have not spoke with him in lik3 3 weeks now.. and i dont even care. Just thought i would
fill everyone in on that.
  But on to even better news, There is this girl that I work with and she wanted me to meet
her friend, so i was like sure.. it cant hurt anything.. :D so i met him and he is perfect.
I have never met a nicer guy.. he actually tells me how he feels. And its great to have met
someone that i dont have to share with someone else.  we went bowling twice.. but im still
shy but i think im going to be over that.. i need to get over it :) anyway i like him alot.
   char likes liam